I'll let you know a little bit about me. When I was around 12/13, I had puppy fat. I wasn't obese, I was just slightly overweight. I am convinced if I had been more sensible with my diet I would have easily lost the puppy fat and I might not have been writing this blog now. But I wasn't - I made unhealthy food choices. In school, I would go to the sweet shop most days. I hardly ever ate any fruit and vegetables. I'd have some sandwiches and then fill up on junk food. At home, I would sneak biscuits and sweets out of the cupboard.
Not surprisingly, my diet caught up with me. My weight slowly shot up and now I am at - wait for it- 19 stone 2lbs. I'm 6" tall, so I can carry a bit of weight but I am definitely overweight. Obese in fact. I'm not sure what compelled me into action, apart from my mother joining WW.
I've never been happy with my size. My friends all have lovely figures, my sister always looks amazing. My self esteem has never been high. All it takes on a night out is for someone to look at me and I feel like a whale. I don't like going into shops and realizing I don't fit into a size 18 anymore. I don't like looking at pictures and seeing rolls of fat, a double chin and a girl who looks unhealthy.
Joining WW - it's been a long time coming. My first weigh in took place last night. I didn't want to know my weight but I had to look at it to shock myself into action. 19 stone 2 pounds.... I was honestly welling up on the scale. My only consolation is telling myself "This is the last time I will EVER be this weight" and I have to truly believe that.
I didn't put on the weight overnight, so I don't expect to lose it overnight. I know this is a lifelong change so I need to be realistic about it.
My first day using pro points was an eye opener for me. I've started to weigh my portions, something I always knew I should do, but never actually did. I calculated pro points (with my WW calculator that I got at my meeting) for all my favourite foods - and wow! For example, Tesco's Finest Potato Mash, something I would have had with my dinner, or on occasion AS my dinner is 20 pro points!!!!!!! I can tell you that went back into the fridge as fast as it came out. I'm still picking my jaw off the floor.
My daily allowance is 46 pro points. Today I only managed 33 pro points, which isn't necessarily a bad thing. I had lots of fruit today as snack and all fruit is 0 points. I feel full so that is the most important thing. My next blog entry will be on Tuesday after my weigh in. Hopefully I will have good news then!!
